So Liz C. saw my ring this afternoon. I have been wearing it on a chain all week. She noticed the chain and pulled it out to see what was on it - yup. The ring. I kinda told her that I am engaged, but not directly. She advised me not to rush into things, that I have already had enough heartbreak in my lifetime. I can't argue with that, but I assured her that I feel very good about this. And that is the honest truth. Yeah, maybe it is too soon, but I am in love. I need to take this chance - it feels so right.

I visited David's Bridal again this evening. The woman who was trying to help me the other day wasn't there though. Another employee informed em that my dress has been discontinued and is not by any means available. Now mind you, this is completely not what Beth (the first woman) told me. so now I just have to call and find out when she is working since she was actually willing to help me! The other woman never even offered to check the item number.

On a more productive note, I was able to consider my bridesmaids. Obviously Heather will be my maid of honor, and hopefully her dress still fits! Although if it doesn't, this will give me more options for their dresses ;) I like the idea of using Lapis as one of my colors (maybe still with the Victorian Lilac), but I'm not sure yet. I wold have to check out floral options. (I am still in love with the bouquet that went so well with the Wine dresses.) Even though wine isn't purple. EEEEKK!!! Stress coming back!! Logging off now.

Well I tried to explain to my mother that I am engaged and currently planning a wedding. it didn't work that way though. When I told her about everything that has been going on with Aaron, she told me that I should have expected it; apparently because I found someone new, he had a right to treat me badly and make me feel unsafe in my own home.

So, that's it. I am engaged! I know it's crazy and seemingly sudden. It just feels right. And while he may not be a doctor (sorry, Mom), he's more than good enough for me. And while she is certain to worry about me, my mother will have less to worry about with this relationship than with the last one.

After I left David's, I stopped at the park and walked almost 3 miles. If I can't get a different size dress, then I am determined to fit back into the one I have!