Told Mom . . . . Finally

Went to visit my mother today. I already knew my uncle was visiting from Florida, so I expected extra people at the house when we got there. I really wasn't sure how to tell her about everything that has been going on lately (engagement, pregnancy) so I still put it off. After a while everyone else left, but Bill came over and we went to eat. I still hadn't said anything. I kinda wanted to say something while we were at the diner, but I'm a chicken LOL I figured if I told her in a public place she couldn't cause too much of a scene about it! Mike decided that we should definitely tell her when we got back to the house. I still didn't want to, so he did. The only person who even reacted was Bill, and I don't even remember what he said. Mom made some comment about me not being able to take care of myself...but was otherwise non-responsive. Granted, she hasn't been feeling well since Friday. Even so, I expected something. She could have yelled at me. Then I would know at least she has some feeling on the matter, even if it's not the excitement I hoped for. I can tell it's going to be a long time til May gets here, definitely going to be a long winter.

First Visit

So we just got back from visiting Michael's mom and friends and family in Bradford. It was a wonderful weekend, although the weather is getting chilly there now - something I'm not quite used to. While there, I scheduled an Ob-Gyn appointment for when we got back to Maryland. Everything went well, and I have to go back in two weeks to discuss the results of the tests. The doctor told me I'm about 7 1/2 weeks along (check out my new lilypie ticker ->), and that the baby was conceived on the 13th (?). How accurate are they with that? I was alone then, Michael didn't move until the 16th! I also figured out that they do calculate from your last menstrual cycle - which also doesn't make sense to me. Oh well, this whole thing will be a learning experience for both of us.

Something wonderful is happening . . . .

Aside from Michael's mother totally loving me, her soon to be daughter-in-law. We are expecting a baby! Now I am not certain how far along we are yet, but it can't be more than 4 weeks. Although the way I have been feeling, the charts have been trying to put me at past 5 wks along, which just is not possible... unless it happened the last time he visited, which would have been early August.

So Liz C. saw my ring this afternoon. I have been wearing it on a chain all week. She noticed the chain and pulled it out to see what was on it - yup. The ring. I kinda told her that I am engaged, but not directly. She advised me not to rush into things, that I have already had enough heartbreak in my lifetime. I can't argue with that, but I assured her that I feel very good about this. And that is the honest truth. Yeah, maybe it is too soon, but I am in love. I need to take this chance - it feels so right.

I visited David's Bridal again this evening. The woman who was trying to help me the other day wasn't there though. Another employee informed em that my dress has been discontinued and is not by any means available. Now mind you, this is completely not what Beth (the first woman) told me. so now I just have to call and find out when she is working since she was actually willing to help me! The other woman never even offered to check the item number.

On a more productive note, I was able to consider my bridesmaids. Obviously Heather will be my maid of honor, and hopefully her dress still fits! Although if it doesn't, this will give me more options for their dresses ;) I like the idea of using Lapis as one of my colors (maybe still with the Victorian Lilac), but I'm not sure yet. I wold have to check out floral options. (I am still in love with the bouquet that went so well with the Wine dresses.) Even though wine isn't purple. EEEEKK!!! Stress coming back!! Logging off now.

Well I tried to explain to my mother that I am engaged and currently planning a wedding. it didn't work that way though. When I told her about everything that has been going on with Aaron, she told me that I should have expected it; apparently because I found someone new, he had a right to treat me badly and make me feel unsafe in my own home.

So, that's it. I am engaged! I know it's crazy and seemingly sudden. It just feels right. And while he may not be a doctor (sorry, Mom), he's more than good enough for me. And while she is certain to worry about me, my mother will have less to worry about with this relationship than with the last one.

After I left David's, I stopped at the park and walked almost 3 miles. If I can't get a different size dress, then I am determined to fit back into the one I have!