Life

So my life just seems to keep getting worse. I owe way too much money to too many people and I don't know what I am going to do to get out of it. I applied to AmeriDebt to see if they can help me out. My credit score is around 500 now because of my stupidity in thinking I was helping someone out. Turns out, "Big A" is just that, a big a**. But I am trying to rise above this. I need to rise above this. I am about four months pregnant and cannot have this kind of stress in my life. Michael has been so good about all of this. He accepts the mistakes I have made in the past and is going to try and help me dig out of them. He told me that my problems are his problems. I couldn't be luckier. I just wish I didn't need his help to fix my screwed up life. So as of today, I will try to stop worrying about everything and just take it one day at a time. That's all anyone can do right? I don't have anyone to ask for help either. My mother already thinks I am a complete failure, and she has bailed me out way to many times before. I still will never be able to repay her for all she has done for me. But i suppose that's what mothers are for. I just hope that someday I will be able to help my children as much as she has helped me.

four more days

I am getting excited about Gabriel's second Christmas. I know he's gonna be great with all the presents. He had a little practice this afternoon when Aunt Heather brought our gifts early. He did great pulling the paper off til he saw Elmo on the box! But after we got it unwrapped, he couldn't put down his new Elmo phone. Thanks Heather!

update

Read the other blog for baby update. Idk y I have 2 anyway

Incoming

We found out about 3 weeks ago that we're expecting our 2nd bundle of joy addition to our family. We expect he/she was conceived around Friday June 11th, based on my last cycle (and some insider info.), which would make us due around March 4th, 2011. We'll have to see how that goes though. Gabriel was due May 4th, but decided to come April 25th instead...I'm thinking this one will be the same way. Time will tell. My mind is already racing with ideas to decorate the spare room for the new little one. Shades of blue and primary colors for a boy, and green and purple for a girl... :)

Nothing Else to Say

Miss me?

After recently (like 3 hours ago) watching Julie & Julia, I have decided to start (resume?) blogging again. Unfortunately for Michael, this does not however mean that I am also taking up French cooking, or any cooking for that matter. This is a blog, not a recipe. While I would like to say that I am going to be very disciplined about this, you and I both know that is not true. One rule I am going to stick to on this blog however is that it is only for family matters: nothing about work (ever on the internet, fear of being dooced), disabled children, or anything else. Just us. And occasionally jewelry - my other love. And that reminds me of projects I have started that need attention, and so I bid adieu, hopefully to speak to you tomorrow.

Morning Ritual

I went home to be with Michael last night and let Gabriel stay at his grandmother's house. While I loved the time spent alone with my honey, I didn't realize how much I miss the morning ritual I have with my little munchkin. Every morning, Gabriel wakes me up and I bring him back to bed with me. I change his diaper while Grandmom gets a new bottle. Then he and I cuddle while he finishes the bottle and we both drift off to sleep until my alarm wakes me for work. I love our cuddle/nap time more than anything. It's like a special bond we're creating, and I hope he doesn't outgrow it too quickly.